Thursday, May 5, 2011

The Worst Test Score Ever

Tuesday I got the test results back from my Oncotype. This test is designed to determine the likely hood of my cancer recurring. I got a 47. That puts me in the category of "high chance of reoccurrence." So not what I was expecting. What does this horrible test score mean? It means I have to undergo 4 months of chemo therapy. I will be starting in the next week or two.

I had my hopes set on being able to return to my beloved Mozambique in June. Instead, I am settling in for 7 more months worth of treatment (radiation after the chemo). I was tempted to opt out of chemo, complete my radiation, and return to Mozambique in June as I had planned it out in my head. But I received some wise counsel from one of my doctors that forced me to look past my immediate circumstances and into the future. . . that giving up a year of my life to fight this cancer will allow me years and years to continue my ministry in Mozambique or wherever God takes me.

If I'm learning anything through this battle with cancer, its that I'm not in control. I am very quick to come up with a plan A and B and sometimes even C. . . ready for whatever the doctor throws my way. Chemo was not in my plans. But I choose to trust in God. I trust that He will get me through this treatment. I trust that He will give me joy and strength.

Throughout this whole cancer thing, I've come back time and time again to the story of Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego being thrown into the fiery furnace. After being removed from the furnace by the king, Daniel 3:27 says, "They saw that the fire had not harmed their bodies, nor was the hair of their heads singed; their robes were not scorched, and there was no smell of fire on them." Will you join me in praying this verse as I begin chemo. Pray that the drugs will attack the cancer cells and not the rest of my body. . . that I will come out of this chemo unharmed.

8 comments:

Big Jen said...

Praying for miraculous healing and that this cancer will never return!!

The Jacobs Family said...

Very wise counsel and sometimes the truth is harder to accept, but the reward when we do is totally worth it. Thinking and praying for you and your boys who I am sure miss you too!

rickyhelvey said...

Hey Sarah!!
I am praying for your wholeness and for strength. I think of you often and every time I do I am praying for your healing. I pray that you will live in peace and be filled with hope and come out clean on the other side. I will see you sometime this month when we meet The Slovs for dinner!

erin said...

standing in prayer with you Sarah!

straydogs said...

Praying for you Sarah! I know this wasn't the news you expected. I'd like to talk to you before you go in for your first treatment. I might have some suggestions that will make it easier.
Just know this........ you will come out OK on the other side of the treatment. May HE bless you in every way. Remeber HIS promise to you.......... a hope and a future.
My no. is 706-202-3648 if you want to talk.
Hope to see you in Athens soon.
Susan

Melissa said...

praying for healing for you and victory in your body! Even though it's difficult, it's SO good that you made the decision for chemo - there's ministry yet ahead for you. Love and blessings!

Anonymous said...

I will continue to pray for you as you are fighting this cancer. Mozambic needs someone like you to help them in their journey. We will stand with you and I am confident the miracles of God will shine over you just like the three Hebrews in the pits of fire... stay strong and may God continue blessing your journey!

Rebecca said...

oh sweet Sarah, I just read and got caught up with you. May God bless you and hold you through this. Becca HG5